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Dear Marie age 19

Dear Marie age 19,

You are the one I need to talk the most, mom and dad fight every two days. She blames you and in every fight, she knocks your door and yells at you. Do you remember the time she came with a revolver and asked you to kill them both? These last 2 years, it is getting worse and will not stop.

You were not able to understand why and how everything will be so wrong, but in the end, this is your home and family. You were verbal abuse by her so many times, we try to please her in every single way, we indulged in her request and wish but it was never enough for her.

People always saw us as a perfect family with privileges and the possibility to do whatever, the sky was the limit.

Enjoy your moments with dad, I remember Marie's burritos every time he covered me with the blanket. Also, our conversations in the kitchen and we talk about his day, talk about everything and nothing at the same time. I want you to cuddle and hug him more, we will miss him later and we almost forgot how that felt.

Memories having lunch at Mama E's house when you scaped from school. The school was not our best time, mom insists the none will love us and they will try to use us. We never believe or trust anybody, you let them use you, it was an easy way to cope with our loneliness.

But you will meet someone in the summer after your first semester, this will be the first time in your life you will feel love. Unconditional love for someone, but sometimes I don't want to remember how I felt at the moment because it hurt so much I would like to give you more details later... we will make a mistake.

I wish you could've able to believe in your self and know how good you are, they are people around you that love you and care about you but we were not able to see it.

From this point on, nothing will be the same... life will be hard on us but before that, please enjoy your happy moment with him, cherish them because they will be the last time we will feel happy and in peace. He will be able to give you those moments that we won't forget and will try to replicate them with every one new you meet from that point on.

I am begging you to keep these words in your mind,

Regards,

Marie age 41



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