Un diario dislexico

Que harias en este momento si fueras yo? Porque eres tu el que aparece en mis sueños, Ese sueño recurrente en que estamos en ese dia nevado, Si fueras yo, Todo fuera diferente, Acaso aparezco en tus sueños tambien? Solo porque eres tu, no pienso que son simples pesadillas, Creo aun que son un sueño, Que puedo hacer si aun guardo la esperanza de verte. Sabes que la primera vez que me enamore, Se que no estaba preparada para reconocer que era amor, La segunda vez creo que hice todo lo posible para pensar que asi era, Que en realidad era verdadero amor, Esta vez esto abierta a conocer el verdadero amor, Se que sera la ultima vez que conocere el amor, Toda mi vida he estado esperando este momento, De encontrar el verdadero amor, Me estado preparando toda la vida para reconocer el amor verdadero, Despues de todo lo que aprendido, Finalmente se que es mi tiempo para conocer el amor.

At the right time,  At the right moment, I know it will be on the right moment I will meet you, Everything will be like a puzzle, Everything will fit perfectly, I try to hold back,  I know every night i pray for you, I know you will be the sunlight, You will give me the light this darkness needs, I know it will be you, It is only you.

When you see the mirror, I expect to see you on the reflection, It is the same every day, And nothing change, The one with dreams and hopes is gone, Everyday I am calling for help, I dont want to miss the days anymore, I want to yell for help, But my throat is close. I want to yell out load that I love you, That every situation, every moment worth something, I want to yell at you: I love you. But my reflection doesnt reply, I dont reply back, I am the only one that doesnt love what I see, What can I do?

By mistake I erase your memories from my mind, But i dont regret it, What should I do? I think everything have a reason, The same way i meet you, The same way I let you go, I dont have words for this, This is the moment I know this is the end for us, Without a word our love blossom, The same way it goes away, This is the time for the change, I need to do it for myself, I need to learn my lesson, Because everything start without a word, With a kiss we seal the deal that day, All this time I think what i miss it was us, In reality, what I miss it was myself, I miss me, The way I felt when you were around, Or the moment we used to have, But it is when I know I will forget you....

No quiero vivir mas sin ti, Te necesito en esta vida, Te quiero aqui conmigo, NO se como hacer para buscarte, No encuentro la manera de encontrarte, Has visto una foto y esta te hace llorar sin ninguna razon, No quiero vivir sin ti, Esta soledad me desgarra, Me hace sentir vacia, Saber que esta ahi, No quiero despedirme de esta vida sin verte al menos una vez cara a cara, Como puedo hacer para verte una vez? He visto tu rostro en sueños, Mi corazon te añora, Mi mente te busca, Quiero recordar porque veo esas fotos y muero por dentro, Las lagrimas se derraman cada vez que pienso en ti, Quiero entender porque se desgarra mi carazon al ver ese rostro, Quiero recordar en que vida te habia visto, Quiero saber donde nos conocimos, Porque mi corazon te añora, Porque estas lagrimas, Recordar porque no puedo vivir sin ti, Porque siento que eres el, Al que estoy esperando, Estoy cayendo en ese circulo vicioso, Estoy tratando de salir de el, Quiero encontrar el sol otra...

After all this days are not the best, not the best for me or my health. My mind is over working and over thinking... The worst is after all the thoughts and analysis, i dont know what i am missing... Maybe the worst part is I am scared of trying, Recognize that fear of losing again, I can live alone,that doesnt hurt anymore. But trying again it is the worst fear of all. Can i rise again if i fall? Can i love again and i am able to survive if they dont love me back? What is the worst can happen? Comfortable loneliness, When i think, i shouldn't hear the first time, In this life, I think i was not destine to find you, To find you again, The first time i was not prepare for it, It was not the right time, Without waiting for it, it showed up, And the same way it was gone, Without a warning, Without a word, I was not able to know that was stupid, That I was the villain in his story, I was not the heroine or the one for him, And the only thing I keep from it was th...