Un diario dislexico

Why am I needing to feel sad or upset or hurt or something? Why do you think that I am hurt by your actions? I know you expect something from me but I don't feel like it. I am being for days waiting for the tears to come but nothing.... I need my piece of mind, I know what I mean and everything that you want me to do.  God knows best and he made the right choice for me. The lord is always here to help me and I will follow his path.  Here I am being a part his plan, working to find my new place and path because this is a great year and the first one of the rest of my life... 

No se como sentirme No se que hacer  No tengo nada planeado  Como se tiene que hacer esto?  No quiero encerrarme pero no me siento bien  Tengo un gran vacío y me siento incomoda,  No tengo responsabilidades,  No tengo idea que voy a hacer mañana,  O la próxima semana,  O la siguiente....  Mi instinto dice que tengo que uir... 

Changes are made by God God knows why he took that decision  He knows better 

I want the wall to echo my crying I am alive Why my family deale with me as i am not alive Do you think i die the same tat my mom run away from this country? I am alive Are you guilty because you let her did with us whatever she wanted? Yes, you did!!! You let her diminish me I still breathing This pain is telling me i still alive She hated me and you let her punish me with her words and hands, I am alive, barely alive.... Did i do something wrong with all of you? I am being punished because i am her daughter.... I am alive.......... And you still waiting for me to reach you and apologies for everything she did to you... I did not ask to be here... this hole is not where i want to be... Still, you envy me because you think i am happy.... And the only thing i did it was survived.... Repeating to myself every day: tomorrow will be better, next year we will be happy, we will be able to run away to our happy place... because of we still alive.... we still breathing.... R...