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I dont want to die...I am still alive

I want the wall to echo my crying
I am alive
Why my family deale with me as i am not alive
Do you think i die the same tat my mom run away from this country?
I am alive
Are you guilty because you let her did with us whatever she wanted?
Yes, you did!!!
You let her diminish me
I still breathing
This pain is telling me i still alive
She hated me and you let her punish me with her words and hands,
I am alive, barely alive....
Did i do something wrong with all of you?
I am being punished because i am her daughter....
I am alive..........
And you still waiting for me to reach you and apologies for everything she did to you...
I did not ask to be here... this hole is not where i want to be...
Still, you envy me because you think i am happy.... And the only thing i did it was survived....
Repeating to myself every day: tomorrow will be better, next year we will be happy, we will be able to run away to our happy place... because of we still alive.... we still breathing....
Reaping my cloth with tears in my eyes and crying aloud expecting someone.....
My number one rescuer is not here anymore, even he decides to save himself and leave me behind...
I am still alive.... I will survive.....and the pain doesnt go.... the emptiness doesnt vanish .....
why am i aliveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?
why am i still breathing?




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