Un diario dislexico

El mal humor me gana los sentimientos, I need attention, I need support and I am searching for it in the wrong places, Sometimes I am the one supporting other people but who will be there for me? I hate myself because I give it all, every single person take a piece of me but every day I wake up alone, Sweet dream, waiting for you to show up in them, You abandon me too, Lately I am waiting for your presence here, Me molesta tanto saber que necesito contacto humano, Que necesito ser abrazada y consolada, Oir que todo lo que estoy haciendo esta bien, But still, I am the one helping other and be the support for them in their hard times, It is not their fault, I never ask for help or support.... It is not a weakness to request for help or cry when you need it, But I do not get used to do it. Sometime I wish to be save by a Magical Handsome being, Then I laugh and remember i should save myself, I can depend of someone to save be, I know in my head, there'...

Giving in, I know myself and this isn't the way to go, I wish to know what was the point of this story and how it felt before, But I am giving up, And I will be doing something for the first time that I never thought before, Said before and never thought it was a good thing, Right now I don't want to be myself, I don't know what to do about it anymore, I'm just lost and not trying to listen to my heart, My brain is still in pain, trying to keep up with my heart, That smile, That dumb smile, That silly smile is able to break my walls? That smily eyes, That sweet eyes, I am not able to stop smiling because of them, God, what is wrong with me? I don't know what to say, People say that I am not ok, Can I take a break sometimes? I don't know....

You don't know what to expect from life, WHen the life give lemons you should do limonate, that what they said. Don't ask me what I am able to do if I have lemons, Maybe a pie, or maybe discover the cure for a complicate disease, Or maybe I will create a new life, or use them to travel around the world, Do you think every change because I am trying to change or give it a try? Or this is not the time to give and open myself. Because I am pushing hard, Maybe I am to happy about it and I need to pop the balloon and smell the reality, But I just like something just simple as this is, No complications no regrets no reason why I need to double check my thoughts, Still I needs to fight..... I have the feeling that everything changed, I don't know how or when, I want to know him better and now, Your eyes are telling something I never saw before, I think everything has changed.... Do you think everything change for good? I want to know you.... I want to know you be...

Las cosas pasan por una razon, O tal vez no pasan por una razon. Nos encontramos y nos dejamos de encontrar, No se si sonreir o llorar, Los dias pasan sin altos ni bajos, Algunas veces pasan por pasar. Creo que debo ser una tonta al no reconocer que las cosas son como el universo quiere que sea, No es como yo quiero que pase, Veo que cada dia nos conocemos mas, Y asi quiero dejar de conocerte, Quisiera dejar de pensar en lo que puede pasar entre nosotros, No es algo que mi soledad quiere que piense porque no es un sentimiento de tranquilidad el que viene despues de esto, siento, eso es lo que pasa es que siento algo en el pecho, Algo que he estado negando por tanto tiempo, Eso que no quiero decir o pensar que necesito algunas veces del dia, Las cosas seguiran su transcurso pero mi mente no quiere que pase, Dejar que todo siga su curso sin hacer cambios, Y si, una voz dice "No es el" Aunque la sonrisa es la que habia visto tanto en sueños....