Un diario dislexico

At the moment you dont know what to do, At the situation you never expect, Or you dont know what to do on it, You found yourself meeting the person you are waiting to see for so long, And it that specific moment you freeze, You try to avoid eye contact, You dont know what else to do, He is trying to see inside your eyes, He wants to approche, But you are to scared because you know you are not strong enough to stop your tears. You know how long you are waiting for this moment, This instant, this encounter, To find him in front of you, He is looking at you, He is standing there, For how long you were dreaming about this? I am not strong enough, I want to run to your arms, I need your arms around me. You keep your distance, trying to avoid him, But in the end, at the moment to say goodbye, I kiss you on the cheek, He reciprocates with a kiss on the cheek, But he didnt stop there, he kisses you next to your lips, Your heart is melting and...

It is a long way to the bottom, It is a long way to go up, It is a long way to find happiness, It is so easy to fall down, It is a long way to get up, May you believe that is enough? Enough reason to give up, It is not enough.....

The hole in my soul is getting bigger, It makes me feel scared, The world doesn't do anything to me, Only God knows what I am without you, Maybe I didn't know you or love you before, But I feel scared, if I don't meet you this time, I miss my chance to know you in this life. I feel like you already leave me, I know already how this life is without you, God knows how hard it is being without you, I may not always know it, I was never sure about it, I know I am not able to live without you, Well only God knows if I am with you, What difference on my soul, The shadow of human will be alive again, But he is the only who knows what I am paying this life. What are we done our past lifes? I feel like you are the only one that is able to write directly to my heart, I have opportunity in my past to love, But I was too young, naive and immature, I was not prepared to know what to do. I remember my first kiss, My first love, But I know it was not prepared for i...

Can stop it, Your world is on my pocket, Are you not able to take the true? What am I to direct at times? What? This is catching people off guard and make them uncomfortable. Are you afraid of the true? Am I such a big deal that you are not able to take it? Do you want it all? Can I push you? Can I push your buttons? What my openness and honesty is being disruptive. The facts are to much to you, You want me to omit drawing reasonable conclusions, conclusions, renderings opinions or fixing blame, even when it is reasonable. You dont trust me, How many time you are going to tell me that i appear arrogant, impatient or uninterested? Why am I talking to myself? I know the answers of each question, I am not ready to open to negotiation, I don't understand what others expect or need from me, I am not a team player, I am very competitive, even I have competition with myself. I know I am talking to myself, I wish to me someone else, I am not able to be candid with my...