Octubre 5 "If We Were Destined"

The hole in my soul is getting bigger,
It makes me feel scared,
The world doesn't do anything to me,
Only God knows what I am without you,
Maybe I didn't know you or love you before,
But I feel scared, if I don't meet you this time,
I miss my chance to know you in this life.

I feel like you already leave me,
I know already how this life is without you,
God knows how hard it is being without you,
I may not always know it,
I was never sure about it,
I know I am not able to live without you,
Well only God knows if I am with you,
What difference on my soul,
The shadow of human will be alive again,
But he is the only who knows what I am paying this life.

What are we done our past lifes?
I feel like you are the only one that is able to write directly to my heart,
I have opportunity in my past to love,
But I was too young, naive and immature,
I was not prepared to know what to do.

I remember my first kiss,
My first love,
But I know it was not prepared for it,
I know it was not the one.
The one I am being bound,
Because we are bound to a destiny.

The course of our lifes have a course,
Maybe is not the one we like or choose,
But I already repair all the damages I caused,
I never picture myself in this life,
The way is turning out,
Missing you, the one I don't know,
Only God knows how different my life is if you are in my path.

I picture everything in my mind,
This is how I am,
Waiting for you,
Missing you,
Because I realized loneliness is killing me,
Even if I showed a peaceful face,
My nights are between tears and sight.

I wish to rewrite my ending,
I can't picture, at this point, that we are going to end together,
My tears are stealing the peace from my heart,
Or it is necessary to forget about happiness,
And continue without hope.

Day by day,
I only wish to have the happy ending that my youngest self wish,
Because I always believed in the happy ending,
The one, who is going to rescue from the dragon,
At this moment, the one, who is going to rescue me from my darkness,
From the hole I created with time and diaper.

Are we really going to again?
Or this will be my life without you?
This time, I will not a happy ending....