Un diario dislexico

I need you here Next to me  Huggins me  Telling me that everything will be ok I need you That the only thing I need at the moment  Choose me Pick me Be by my side  I want to be selfish at least this time That the only thing I want  You waking up next to me  You carrasin my hair and hugging me when I cry Cry to loose all my frustration into your arms Felling your heart  Wishing everything and getting nothing in my life Wishing you  Needing you In the end, getting my hopes up  Let go and let run away  Let do it  You have the power and my heart  Let me go to sleep  And I will dream about you  Our life together  At least in them, I know I can be happy with you by my side

Sometimes I don't know I created someone that was able to survive and it was able to be alone...  But I am not  I don't deserve love Even my parents leave me alone  They searched for their own happiness and never thought to make me part of it I believe in love  To be happy ever after with one person Still I don't search for it Because who will choose me?  I have proof that I am not the first choice for anyone...  How can I be so willing to help everyone to be happy but not able to find happiness for myself?  How shitty can I feel every single time,  Doesn't matter who they are, they always want something from me but they never come to give me something  The only thing I need is their care and their love... I want to be their first choice... To belong