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Julio 25 "I am scared"

You see people around you,
You see them happy, sad, satisfied, frustrated,
But you ever wonder how they looked at you?

I was different
I was not always this way
I talked in a different way
I didn't care about my body
I was careless
My philosophy was "Let it be and live the now"

Why do you change?
What happen to you?
Sometimes I blame myself for the choices,
My reactions,
The plans, I never follow,
My visceral reactions to all that happen to me,
Never think before I act.

I felt rock bottom,
I was not able to hide anymore more,
Everybody try to hide and use a mask,
It could be sock or buskin mask,
But they hide from the reality,
Trying to earn empathy from other,
Or simple they are afraid of themself.

I am scared,
I am afraid to be alone,
I am scared to be alone with my thoughts,
I am afraid to feel something again,
I am broken inside,
I am scared to be love again,
I am afraid to feel insecure again,
I am not worth the effort to be love,
I am not brave enough to fight for it.

When do you need to change?
Are you brave?
Are you going to dare to fight?
Are you doing these changes for you?
Are you afraid of the changes?
Are we able to do it?
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