Julio 22 "Beside me"

It was a time that everything went wrong,

Before that everything had a light of hope,

Dreams was made and you thought everything will be fine,

You didn't need to pay for your decisions.

All your decisions have a price that you are paying today,

Now I am all alone,

On my own, 

Pretending that you are beside me,

And I know that is only in my mind,

This is the heavy and highest price I pay,

I am paying to be free and take my own decisions.

I stand in the rain,

Feeling the drops running in my skin.

This is the only way I am able to make believe he is near,

This is the way you are able to live in my head.

All alone, but still you are able to walk beside me

You are here.

With him, I am able to feel his arms around me,

In this darkness, 

I know I only having a conversation with myself,

Without him,

My world around me change,

My life is full of strangers,

But I know I am only pretending,

Because without me,

His life is full of happiness and dreams.

There is the realization,

I love him but only on my own,

I know I am talking to myself and not to him,

All of this is in my mind, 

But everyday I am learning,

All my love is pretending,

Remember this is only on my own.