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Julio 16 "Why do I run away?"


Do you ever question yourself why are you running away?
Do you think I am a believer?
Always overthinking everything and find that it is not possible to find the reason to stay.
I think a know the reason and answer to my no ending questions:
Why do i run away? Why i keep running away?

I am running away from myself, It is because of me.
I am able to works and live, but I am not what i want to be
There is part of me, I don't take seriously,
I wish to be something else,
I saw my imagine on the mirror and I don't believe it is good enough.

Even some people is telling me: "You are I good enough",
My family doesn't believe I am good enough,
I wish them to be with me,
Without them I feel alone,
It hurts not having them around.
If I run away again, the distance will makes this feeling go away.

Distraction, Yes I need them
Work is my number one option,
Work makes me feel good,
I want to stop thinking about everything,
Thinking about what I am missing or lost,
I want to became a believer,
I want to feel something,
I want to see myself without any regrets,
First I need to love myself.

My demons are not able to be with me anymore,
They need to go away,
Sometimes I make my hopes go up,
Do you think is It possible to focus in another person right now?
Do you ask yourself if you are ready to love someone else?

Do you wish to have someone that is able understand each of your unique corkyness?
The one who will get all your daydreaming, dreams, stupidities, my semi-intelligent conversations,
Sometime I have conversation in my head,
Try to find a reason, but my brain doesn't stop.

I have mix emotions,
I have emotions that I am being saving for so long,
I need to shout out that I wish to be in a different place,
But no one knows about it,
The worst part of this is you feel all alone with your thoughts.

It is someone there that is able to understand,
I wish to share my secrets,
Are you able to listen to them?
I am waiting for your answer....
Wishing sometimes is the only thing I have,
Words will come one day,
And I will tell you all my secrets,
Hoping in the end you will not run away from them.
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