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Agosto 4 "I never hate you"

Today,
I realize....
Everytime I walk by your house,
My heart beats faster,
The memories run again,
And every pass so slow...
All of these make me...
I never though I will be here,
I never knew I will remember everything,
I never hate you, like I do right now...
I never need you, like I do right now...
The standard,
The requirements,
The dreams,
The hopes,
All of that came from someone else mind,
Not from here....
She wants me to be a model,
He wants me to be happy,
They want me to be rich,
And I want....
I didn't know what I want to be....
I need you,
But it is possible that I don't,
I love you,
But it is a habit of me to think that,
I want to save me,
But I learned no one will do it for you.
I never knew all these tears meant something,
But not for someone beside myself.
They don't know what happened,
Or how hard it was......
So I don't know if i cry,
They are for pain or relief....

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