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Julio 28 "bAD gIRL"

NO se que decir,
De que hablar,
MUchas veces me pregunto en que momento me perdi,
Las cosas, mi vida tenia un plan, una historia, un path, un sentido....
Al menos eso era lo que me repetia todos los dias, al menos eso era lo que creia.

Todo ere segun el plan,
Todo iba segun lo que me habian enseñado en casa,
Mi mama me habia dicho que las cosas debian de ser de esa manera,
Encontrar a alguien,
Conocerlo, luego el casamiento y los hijos,
Y la realidad o la vida me golpeo,
Me dio una bofetada,
Me mostro que todo lo que creia realidad era todo una mentira,
Lo que me habian dicho,
Esas promesas, la fidelidad, el "amor unico e incondicional", el respeto, la compañia,
Eran una mentira,
Que me duele mas?!?!?!
La infidelidad o la traicion o la mentira o que me lo estes negando?!?!?

Me pongo a pensar en cada momento, ocasion, salida que tuviste con tus "amigos", en lo flexible que era contigo con respecto a respetar tu tiempo personal, en creer que dejando tu libertad de salir y despues pienso cuantas de ellas ocupaste para salir con otra.

No creo que sea la primera vez y menos la ultima,
Me dijiste que era mi culpa,
Me hechaste la culpa por ser dificil,
Que tan dificil soy?!?!?!
La que trabajo 2 trabajos para mantenernos con los gustos que el señor queria,
Con llegar a la casa y contarte lo que pasaba en la oficina; porque simplemente necesitaba desahogarme con alguien....
Con contarte mis problemas y mis tristezas,
Se que no soy la persona mas facil tampoco,
Pero solo decime que tan mala persona soy?!?!?!
Que trate de hacer tanto por nosotros que lo arruine todo yo??!?!?!?!
Veo como sos con las demas, les decis cosas bonitas,
Tenes atenciones con tus amigas y es cuando me pregunto "Que soy yo entonces para ti?"
Porque con el resto de las personas son diferente y conmigo no.
Acaso despues de tantos años de novios pensaste que estabas en obligacion de seguir juntos porque "ni modo, al menos eso le debo"

ALGUIEN ME PUEDE DECIR QUE HICE MAL YO?!?!?!?!
QUE ALGUIEN ME RESPONDA CUAL FUE MI ERROR!!!
QUE TANTO MAL TE HICE PARA MERECER ESTO!!!!!

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