Octubre 11 "Shallow"

Emptiness,
Nothingness,
The hole in the wall,
The one I used to see outside,
It looks like the sun is shining there,
But it's scary to cross the line,
The wall is not that strong,
But it's cosy and homy here,
Why I need to take the chance to cross,
Loneliness,
Shallow hopes,
My heart doesn't want to try again,
It's scary,
If I feel alive again,
If learn to have hope again,
And everything goes wrong,
I don't have a heart to keep it together again,
I almost lost myself last time,
I was wondering without a purpose,
I lost it last time,
I was hard to find myself,
Why to take a chance?
Do you think I am strong enough for it?
But nothing last forever,
Suddenly I will not be able to leave even if I want too,
I don't know what is more scary,
Not able to leave this shallow way of survive life in a hopeless loneliness,
Or find a reason to change it,
But with the uncertainty of what will be the end result of my adventure,
What is the worse of them?
Which one I fear the most?
Fear will move me on my decision or not?
I feel pressured at this point,
The time is running out,
And the chance is running away,
What are you doing tonight to change our live?