Thinking out loud...

These days I am being cried because of you,
Sometimes I think that only love can hurt like this,
But this is what I think?
I am thinking of us,
Every moment,
Every look,
Every tender lovemaking,
Every fight,
Every disagreement,
At the moment I wake up, 
I can see your face next to mine,
I try to hold it and it vanishes in the air,
I try to feel your arms around me,
I try to feel your hands holding mine,
But it is too late for all this yearning.

You were my home and shelter,
I still fighting with feelings,
I only think that you were mine and I let you go,
I was not ready,
I was a fool and I made you paid for my immaturity,
You always were and will be one of the kind,
I wish to be next to you,
Hold you at least a one last time,
Tell you how sorry I am for all the pain I inflicted,
The way I behaved...

At this point in my life,
I know we will not be together again,
I need to let you go from my heart,
I need to forget you,
I struggle with the idea,
You were one of the best things that happen to my life,
You were my happy times,
You were the one who showed me that life was worth living,
I was lost and alone,
You made me believe you will be with me forever,
That it is why you are still here in my heart,
Because I feel lost if you are not here with me...